Andy Pawlak/Monkey

Song Lyrics Page

"Shoebox Full Of Secrets" album
Secrets
You And Me
Best Regards
Forever
Mother's Day
All That's Left Of Me
Eskimo Kissing
Love Letters
For Better Or For Worse
White Eagles
No Compromise
Wintertime



"B-sides and miscellanous tracks"
Bulldogs
Lullaby
Squeeky Clean
Turn Again



"Low Beat Folk" album
Caving In
Hole
I Will - CHECK THIS ONE
Slow Dance
Hurt
You Got Me
Seven Days
The Act - CHECK THIS ONE
Everything Mends
Bullshit And Dreams



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Shoebox Full Of Secrets

Secrets


She said she loved tomato soup
Had orange stains on all her favourite books
And a dusty chess set that never moved
And a shoebox full of secrets
She sang bitter songs on an old guitar
Of hungry dogs and hoovered lawns
Of oaths that were so boldly sworn
Of lovers keeping lovers warm

This time around, this time
We'll try to keep our heads above the ground
And the feelings came again
All the dizzy heights of pain
This time around, this time
We'll keep our bed of nails where it can't be found
Where the dirty dishes stay
Where the deepest murmurs lay

She said she'd found a place to hide
In a big white room full of big white lies
Where her life was just a state of mind
Just a shoebox full of secrets
And graciously she'd sit and stare
In her baby skin and flaxen hair
Writing guilty words for guilty songs
Of lovers keeping lovers warm

You And Me


You and me stare holes in walls
Schooltime, swoon, daydreams
Head over heels
Drowning in need
Sinking with arms outstretched
To feel each breath you breathe
You're my remedy

And when the darkness comes to town
Chains are cut and lights are down
We'll curl up in our golden gown
And bend the rules that love laid down

You and me lives of tortured thoughts
Of change the world ideals
Oh naivety
Watch the sun just sink away
Sizzle as it hits the sea of green
Change the way it's always been
Shout and scream at worlds that never hear



Mermaids


If we smile someday
I hope the wind will change
Make us stay that way
Catch us stealing paperchains
On milky days
Will this never end, all this walking
My shoes have stopped talking
And they used to be the best of friends

We should be swimming with mermaids
Not praying for rain
In puddles of lace
Watching tumbleweeds tumbling
Feeding ice cream to rattlesnakes
We should be swimming with mermaids
Not praying for rain
In puddles of lace

She's pulling hair again
And standing on kittens' tails
Swears she's not to blame
Scratching screaming, big boys did it
And ran away
Will this never end, all this walking
My shoes have stopped talking
And they used to be the best of friends



Best Regards


We all lay down like sleepy lovers
And all the colours ran
When they'd been in the wash too long
And in the sun the water shone

And all the children swam
Among the floating bombs
A gift from Uncle Sam
Sent with his best regards
Another boy was took last night
He had his hands and ankles tied
He tasted gun oil in his mouth
And never heard another sound

We pushed our trolleys round
Like tired mothers
Chewed all the reasons round
And spat out conscience when you'd gone
And in the sun the water shone

And Audie Murphy rode on out
On a silver stallion
To count the scalps he'd taken
To tend the land he'd stolen
And Audie Murphy rode on out
Into the clear blue yonder
Ten o'clock BBC1
And in the sun the water shone



Forever


She woke the same way she woke everyday
When the sunlight found her window
And warmed her pillow
In the shadows all her toys ran away
As if nothing had happened
Like they'd been there forever

And forever could be a long time
We carved it under our names that day
When we made love under blossom covered branches
Told all our plans to the birds and the bees
'cause if we can't be together
I've got this big old feeling
Forever could be an eternity

She walked the same way she walked everyday
Where the surf me the sand
With her shoes in her hand
Lonely footprints disappeared under waves
That got colder and deeper
Probably been there forever



Mother's Day


April showers came to town
And blew her shiny washing all around
To paint the sky an awful grey
Give the ducks an Easter Holiday

And when it all came down around her feet
In the soggy paper mache streets
She kept a hold of love
The only thing he never robbed her of
She kept a hold of love
The only thing that never wandered off
(Never wandered off - love)

Daisy chains floated her way
A baby's gift of love on Mother's Day
He gave her back her maiden name
Summer never felt the same

When it all came down around her feet
In the soggy paper mache streets
She kept a hold of love
The only thing he never robbed her of
She kept a hold of love
The only thing that never wandered off
(Never wandered off - love)

When it all came down around her feet
In the soggy paper mache streets
She kept a hold of love
The only thing he never robbed her of
She kept a hold of love
The only thing that never wandered off
(Love)

She kept a hold of love
She kept a hold of love
She kept a hold of love



All That's Left Of Me


I threw the matches in the fireplace
And watched the embers glow
Until they died away
The little bird in the cuckoo clock
Put out the cat and checked all the locks
And when the moving picture stopped
I dreamt of you and the little white dot

Call around and see
All that's left of me
You'll find me nesting high up
Among the weathered beams
Call around and see
The crumbled cookies left to me
My avenue of memories
We fumbled love so clumsily
Love just laughed and ran away
And kept the change

I lay and wondered what you'd wear today
And hid from nagging doubts
Until they died away
The little girl in the party frock
Blew out the candles one by one
And when the burning daydreams stopped
I sat alone with the playschool clock



Eskimo Kissing


There's a real life somewhere
Where the jigsaw won't end
Full of gingerbread sunsets
We should know we've been there
Where the bogeyman can't find
Where the bedbugs don't bite
Full of fairytale daydreams
Eternally whispering

It could have been beautiful
It could have been beautiful
So naive, imagining
I could survive a day without you
Beautiful
It could have been beautiful
So beautiful

There's a last chance somewhere
Asleep in a dusty armchair
In a tinderbox love song
We should know we've been there
We could watch Santa Claus fly by
In the glow of a wintertime beach fire
Laughing and Eskimo kissing
Eternally whispering

It could have been beautiful
It could have been beautiful
So naive, imagining
I could survive a day without you
Beautiful
It could have been beautiful
So beautiful

It could have been beautiful
It could have been beautiful
So naive, imagining
I could survive a day without you
Beautiful
It could have been beautiful
So beautiful



Love Letters


She sent me browning in a letter
Words I've never read before
They filled the pages with such splendour
A bear with silken paw
A verse worth dying for

And you were there
Pouring water on a dusty land
Crashing waves on barren sand
And I was free to feel
The tranquil grace you gave to me
And all the words I'd steal
From ancient whispers in my head

She sent me shades of fairer weather
And faith I'd never felt before
She filled the pages with such splendour
Ideals from distant shores
A place worth dying for



For Better Or For Worse


I thought we'd caught it in time
It would've made the whole thing sublime
And the trees we planted grow up tall
But at twenty things still happen fast
I wish we'd let the whole thing pass
'cause our apples just fell over next door's wall

Yeah we just about had everything
Wine and plenty songs to sing
Never knowing right or wrong
As long as you were in my arms
It took the edge off everything
That hire-purchase wedding ring
Wish we could just send it back
And sweep the dust under the mat

Four walls get smaller everyday
I hate it when you breathe that way
Even Dallas isn't quite the same
So I walk and think what might have been
It stops the walls from closing in
Cry but it just makes my face all red
Then I walk home slowly to your bed



White Eagles


He kissed her face the last time
And touched her golden hair
His life was with her, in her
His life just ended there
And she was gone forever
They took her far away
The cold began to sever
In a field of frozen tears he lay

He never saw the whites of their eyes
All he heard was diesel roar
In a blitzkrieg situation
At the start of so much more
And all the men with broken watches
Raised their lances high
Then onward into no tomorrow
Time to neither buy nor borrow
To say their last goodbye
Or raise their glasses high
He looked for life
Through tired and weary eyes
Lightning flashed and bold white Eagles died

He watched the rain the last time
Caressing Autumn air
Through windows hazed with warm breath
Serenity was there
Then it was gone forever
They blew it all away
The cold began to sever
In a field of frozen tears he lay



No Compromise


Wash your hands of life
Unrequested then denied
Doors are slammed and locked up tight
All hope was shot at dawn
And keys were thrown in rivers - wi-de

Ran off to play some other game
Fat boys with cream upon their chins

I watch the blind leading the blind
To deeper pockets, bigger smiles
My life is armchair screams
My dreams are armchair dreams
Leave behind the pain that burns in-si-de
No compromise

Wash your hands of life
You child of twenty summers bright
Indifferent ears unyielding eyes
Clutching at straws with all their might

I watched the blind leading the blind
To deeper pockets, bigger smiles
My life is armchair screams
My dreams are armchair dreams
Leave behind the pain that burns in-si-de
No compromise

(Guitar solo)

I watched the blind leading the blind
To deeper pockets, bigger smiles
My life is armchair screams
My dreams are armchair dreams
Leave behind the pain that burns in-si-de
No compromise
No compromise



Wintertime


Do you love me
As much as ice cream by the sea ?
Can I tell anymore
Whoever anyone should be ?
We could whisper as the snowflakes came
To settle in the trees

And you could tell me winter stories of maybe
A frozen handful to save me

Do you love me
Like all your tattered schoolbooks say ?
Can I show anyone
Or did those scribbled moments fade ?
We could whisper while the new moon blazed
And scattered through the trees


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Bulldogs


Pull me up with both hands
And watch my shoes get swept away
To a land that's tongue-tied

Revelling in its own decay
And everlasting pastel gray
We'll part the leaves to see
And laughed till we fall out(s) our tree

Further downstream every day
The neon arrow points - the way
It's a no-hope, sink their own boat
Smile and simply - cut their own throat
Kill whatever - maybe might have - been

Hold me tight with both arms
And whisper hope to calm my fears
And make it last forever
Hey a yeh hey a

I floated on by from time to time
To watch them steal clothes off your line
Ring your bell and run away
I'd live to steal another day

Further downstream every day
The neon arrow points - the way
It's a no-hope, sink their own boat
Smile and simply - cut their own throat
Kill whatever - maybe might have - been
Doo doo doo - ooh ooh

When the sun came up today
We talked of what - we could've had
Of right and wrong - and good and bad
Of times that must - have gone astray
We shook our heads, in cold dismay
The clouds are crying - 'wash the world away'

(Guitar solo - to fade)



Lullaby


He walked through leaves, through scents of pine
That filled the air with summertime
His hair was white, his first/furnace calls (?)
A gently wilting rose

I saw it all through - Father's eyes
A burst of life - their greatest prize
Who whispered lullabies
To steal a baby's smile

She wept on woods - her tears had made
All her olden tales - in golden haze
The cherished times - in lines of prose
A gently wilting rose

I saw it all through - Mother's eyes
A burst of life - their greatest prize
Who whispered lullabies
To steal a baby's smile

I saw it all through - Mother's eyes
A burst of life - their greatest prize
Who whispered lullabies
To steal a baby's smile



Squeeky Clean


You read the lines impeccably
Kept off the grass on village greens
Washed behind her necks and ears
Set her breasts for all to see
Kept her noses squeeky clean

But then the reasons came to me
The gaping holes where truth should be
Ambition bursting at the seams
Who flew away on tepid wings
And never raised its head again

All the time we spent
To justify the sin
We could've raised the rent
We blew the lid off everything
We're all the(?) small-town boys
We're full of small-town jails
But pouring salt on snails

We keep to pay our license fee
Kept (the) little dogs on (the) little leads
Drank our milk and ate our greens
Made our beds for all to see
Kept our noses squeeky clean

But then the reasons came to me
The toothless grins where truth should be
The tiny lives of jealousy
The kindled fires of apathy
Inherited to always be

All the time we spent
To justify the sin
We could've raised the rent
We blew the lid off everything
We're all the(?) small-town boys
We're full of small-town jails
But pouring salt on snails

(Keyboard solo)

(In) All the time we spent
To justify the sin
We could've raised the rent
We blew the lid off everything
We're all the(?) small-town boys
We're full of small-town jails
But pouring salt on snails

(With) All the time we spent
To justify the sin
We could've raised the rent
We blew the lid off everything
We're all the(?) small-town boys
We're full of small-town jails
But pouring salt on snails~



Turn Again


Spoke in harmony
Like a barber's shop quartet
Then our pennies went
Then our line went dead
But it's so dark down here
And there's so far to go
I'm coming home tonight
Just thought I'd let you know

Come on down this end
Get the green, green grass of home - out your head
'Coz the streets are paved - with gold
And all the stories you've been told are true
Little boy - that could be you
The stench you become accustomed to
Could be yours for the taking
Yours for the taking

So I packed my wildest dreams
In a spotted handkerchief
And I passed Dick Whittington
On his way to see the Queen
I heard you whispering
Three-hundred miles to go
I'm coming home tonight
Just thought I'd let you know

Come on down this end
Get the green, green grass of home - out your head
'Coz the streets are paved - with gold
And all the stories you've been told are true
Little boy - that could be you
The stench you become accustomed to
Could be yours for the taking
Yours for the taking


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"Low Beat Folk" album


All songs A.Pawlak.
Warner/Chapel Music.

Andy Pawlak - Guitars & Vocals
Scott Donaldson - Guitars & Backing Vocals
Dick Nolan - Bass
Jasper Irn - Drums

Produced by Kevin Bacon and Johnathon Quarmby
at Axis Studios in Sheffield



Caving In


Jimmy got an AK with an eighty round clip
Bought it with the money from the cars that he nicked
Keeps it under his bed
That's what he said
It's just in case coz it's a dangerous place
Now he feels safe

Jimmy got an AK with an eighty round clip
Took it the country to really let rip
He couldn't believe I would talk through the trees
Really have fun and pities the scum
who get in his way

This is England in a spin
This is England caving in
This is England on its knees
This is England saying please
This is England Autumn broke
This is England what a joke
Nobody laughs
Nobody wins
This is England caving in

Jimmy got an AK with an eighty round clip
Bought it for protection, bought it for a slip
And healing his train, in the fracture at plague ??
And turned them to dogs and turned the future to fog/fuck ??
And left us all laid ??

This is England in a spin
This is England caving in
This is England on its knees
This is England saying please
This is England Autumn broke
This is England what a joke
Nobody laughs
Nobody wins
This is England caving in

He was really amazed
By the way that it blazed
He turned the rage
The hate that had spread
By the power it gave
They'll take it away
Over his grave

This is England in a spin
This is England caving in
This is England on its knees
This is England saying please
This is England Autumn broke
This is England what a joke
Nobody laughs
Nobody wins
This is England caving in



Hole


I can't wait
Until I see you again
Until tomorrow comes
Until forever ends

But if there's one thing I know
Without you there's a
Hole in my soul
And I don't care if the winter holds
Love is safe
And it would wait until
Tears turn - to snow

Time is all
Curdled and ??
Frozen ??
Until you're closer still

But if there's one thing I know
Without you there's a
Hole in my soul
And I don't care if the winter holds
Love is safe
And it would wait until
The tears turn - to snow

The trouble with you is
You can't hear this
You're not here with - me
The trouble with you is
You could do this - to me

But if there's one thing I know
Without you there's a
Hole in my soul
And I don't care if the winter holds
Love is safe
And it would wait until
The tears turn - to snow

But if there's one thing I know
Without you there's a
Hole in my soul
And I don't care if the winter holds
Love is safe
It would wait until
The tears turn - to snow

Till the tears turn to snow
Till the tears turn to snow



I Will


(CHECK THIS ONE ?)

When they come to get you like
You always knew they would
They've been and stripped you down
Of pulse ?? and skin and blood
When the tired ?? kickers took you for a spell
Found the filler ?? and the water leaking there

Told you it was raining while they
Were pissing down your back
Tried explaining when I've
Fallen through your cracks
You were easy pickings
And they scavenged every scrap
Took you for nothing
Left you like a rash

It's only playing
Keeps us cold and still
But the flame will fix us
Baby, I will
And all I do is need ? you
And all I do is stare
Just beneath the sky above you
And the picture digging near

The holes we should've - never really filled
The road we should've scraped away but never did
Stains clinging just beneath the rim
Wound quarterised, the blist up ?? paper-thin

It's only playing
That keeps us cold and still
But the flame will fix us
Baby, I will

Give us a blindness of the mighty
Give us a patience of the lamb
May the earth bear lightly
On the choices that we make



Slow Dance


Did they say forever ?
What do they know ?
One-third over
Two-thirds to go

Would you die for your reasons -
Are they cast in stone ?
Well guess what ...
It's just a short hop
From the meat on your bones

Rise from a warmth and a redness and we'll
Fall to the coldness of blue
Sometimes my colours ain't the
Same as your colours and
Sometimes my words ain't the
Words that you - use

It's just a slow dance
But they're an old rule
It's just a low groove
To an old tune
It's just a slow dance
But I do my dancing - with you

Sun burns the sacred
Through the holes in the sky
And if you're not dressed
You'll catch your death
From kissing goodbye

So pull yourself closer
There's nothing to lose
I could tell you
That I love you but
Saying it just ain't worth
The breath that I use

Rise from a warmth and a redness and we'll
Fall to the coldness of blue
Sometimes my colours ain't the
Same as your colours and
Sometimes my words ain't the
Words that you - use

It's just a slow dance
But they're an old rule
It's just a low groove
To an old tune
It's just a slow dance
But I do my dancing - with you

Did I ever tell you -
What you mean to me ?
My friend, as the road bends
The picture gets clearer and clearer as

Rise from a warmth and a redness and we'll
Fall to the coldness of blue and
Sometimes my colours ain't the
Same as your colours and
Sometimes my words ain't the
Words that you - use

It's just a slow dance
But they're an old rule
It's just a low groove
To an old tune
It's just a slow dance
And I do my dancing - with you
Woo-ooh
It's just a slow dance
And I do my dancing - with you



Hurt


Fate blew its load
All over our roses
Left us stone cold
Through to our boneses
Thought I would bounce
But I hit the ground
But I'm still digging hope
The other way is down

It was close
Sue was all over us
Tugging her coat
Subtle as a blunderbuss
Then it pounced
Kicked all our teeth in, but it
Pissed itself laughing at us first

All it does is hurt
It's all I can tell you girl
All it does is hurt
All it does is hurt

Fate blew its load
Caught us comatose
Straight for our throats
Subtle as a thunderbolt
Shot us down
Left us buckled and burning up
Dug through our pockets with this curse

All it does is hurt
It's all I can tell you girl
All it does is hurt
It's all I can tell you girl
All it does is hurt
All it does is hurt

Only a fool lives here to us ??
We're ?? in which he turns
Only a fool lives here to us ??
We're ?? in which he turns
But you're never too clever, no

All it does is hurt
It's all I can tell you girl
All it does is hurt
It's all I can tell you girl
All it does is hurt
All it does is



You Got Me


Ever get the feeling you've been taken for a ride ?
Ever get the feeling there's a scowl behind the smile ?
Ever get the feeling that the world's a really lies ? ??
That's it started to unwind, right before your eyes ?

Ever get the feeling things aren't cut and dry ?
Ever get the feeling she's cutting you down in size ?
Ever get the feeling someone's getting all the best rides,
She's sliding around, someone else's smile ?

You got me
Anyway you want me, You got me
Yeah - yeah, yeah
I don't know what hit me
You got me - yeah
Didn't know you had it in you

Sleeping on the ceiling
Nightmares for a while
Voices in the ether say it's
Sticking out a mile
Ever get the feeling you're the only one who's blind,
As she's riding around, someone else's tiles ?

You got me
Anyway you want me, You got me
Yeah - yeah, yeah
I don't know what hit me
You got me - yeah
Didn't know you had it in you
Didn't know you had it in you

She's sliding around, someone else's smile ?

You got me
Anyway you want me, You got me
Yeah - yeah, yeah
I don't know what hit me
You got me - yeah
Anyway you want me, you got me
Yeah - yeah, yeah
I don't know what hit me, You got me
Yeah, yeah
Didn't know you had it in you
I didn't know you had it in you
Didn't know you had it in you
Didn't know you had it in you



Seven Days


Sleep - On a rolling log
Deep - In a swollen fog
Heave - On a creaking coast ??
Seven days
Since you've been gone
Seven days
Since you've been gone

Sleep like a rolling log
Deep in a swollen fog
Heave on the creaking boards
Seven days
Since you've been
Upstream on our own in vogue
From stealing our leaking boat
As free as freedom goes
Seven days
Since you've been - gone

Dream - in a hissing hell
Disease - in the wishing well
Tease - by laugh and song
Seven days
Since you've been gone
Seven days
Since you've been gone

Sleep like a rolling log
Deep in a swollen fog
Heave on the creaking boards
Seven days
Since you've been
Upstream on our own in vogue
From stealing our leaking boat
As free as freedom goes
Seven days
Since you've been - gone

Free - when the morning comes
Lean - as the waking numbs
Bleed - as from our arms ??
Seven days
Since you've been gone
Seven days
Since you've been gone
Seven days
Since you've been gone
Seven days
Since you've been gone

Since you've been gone
Since you've been gone
Since you've been gone



The Act


(CHECK THIS ONE)

Sometimes you sure you're lost
Your face not worth the cost
You're dead and you're gone
For ? days tomorrow long
Face the scythe ?? and wind
Let it's bitten lettered ?? spin
Coz you know that in the end
He will fade and you begin

I will - be there - for you
I will - be there - for you

Sometimes the words, not the act
means your world did well ?? to tracks ??
From the rage, then the calm
For ? days tomorrow long
Let the space-sail past
Feels the grit against the glass
Coz you know that in the end
He will fade and you will last

I will - be there - for you
I will - be there - for you

Feel the blazes ?? on your face
Feel the shape of his mistakes
Feel the punches and the pain
Break away and start again
Face the scythe ?? and wind
Let it's bitten lettered ?? spin
Coz you know that in the end
He will fade and you will win

I will - be there - for you
I will - be there - for you

I will - be there - for you
For you
I will - be there - for you



Everything Mends


I'm falling over myself
Tripping over my tongue
Stuck in your well
Trying to tell you
Everything mends

You were then moonlight
You were then flame
You were then frostbite
As the colour you stain
Haunted and sleepless
Eyes fire red
Pray for the star-burst
Everything mends

I'm falling over myself
Tripping over my tongue
Stuck in your well
Trying to tell you
Everything mends

La, la, la, la - la
La, la, la, la - la, loh
La, la, la, la - la
La, la, la, la - la, loh

The splash of sunlight
To slap your face
To thaw the sadness
And fasten your grace
Beauty and passion
Beauty and pain
But beauty is down ??
With a flame ??

I'm falling over myself
Tripping over my tongue
Stuck in your well
Trying to tell you
Everything mends

La, la, la, la - la
La, la, la, la - la, loh
La, la, la, la - la
La, la, la, la - la, loh



Bullshit And Dreams


In my dreams
I'm hanging by my thumbs
I feel the lies?? and hammer blows
Dealt by the man in swastikas
And all I am
Is tattooed on my arm
And when I wake
It's almost gone

I am your blood, I am your genes
I am your bullshit and your dreams
I have your wit - and I have your means

Until the day that I go cold
I'll keep your horror in my bones
It will be told
You can sleep free
Leave it to me

In my dreams
I feast on festered dog
I smell the people in the smoke
Spewed by the heaving furnaces
I am thirteen
Have seen all man can do to man
And when I wake
It's almost gone

I am your blood, I am your genes
I am your bullshit and your dreams
I am your wit - and I am your means

Until the day that I go cold
I'll keep your horror in my bones
It will be told
You can sleep free
Leave it to me

I am your blood, I am your genes
I am your bullshit and your dreams
I am your wit - and I am your means

Until the day that I am cold
I'll keep your horror in my bones
It will be told
You can sleep free
Leave it to me